My walk

God has placed me in a church that is so unusual to me. Worship is very old school and the people are very religious. After the last bible study I have been very confused. Because worship music for me has always been a way to connect with God’s heart. For me to feel Him intimately. But the bible study was ” mostly ” about music. How some big churchs are ” playing God” directing how we feel.

But when you see the videos or are in one of those places with God. You see His children being healed. Watching them in tears with hands raised worshipping God. How can this be a bad thing. How can this be something other than a chance to worship God with song. Like in the bible. I truly wonder why people choose to see passionate worship is a bad thing. I do not know these peoples heart and it’s not for me to judge. That’s Gods job. But in reality if it brings me to a place of intimacy with God. How can that be wrong?

In the bible there are people and places that are not acceptable to God, but He loves them. He moves by His power to change their hearts. To be in a place of worship with Him. God sent Jesus as the greatest sacrifice of love. His love for us. Even the ones who don’t believe. If I’m worried about worship and not seeking His heart in how I respond to my family or people He loves, aren’t I putting myself in a place to play God, which is exactly what they are speaking against.

What does it matter. The way we love is the greatest for of worship we have. It’s not my job to be God. Its my heart to love Him and love others. However I get to ace is between me and God.

I pray for the hearts that use this place to turn people against God. To make them afraid of worship. Love is action ( a huge lesson I learned there) but so is worship. Tears running down my face, and the faces of others. Jumping up and down, feeling of butterfly’s from the God who created the world. This is a beautiful experience for me. And for many others. It’s not my place to judge how they got there or why. That’s for them and God. In their relationship with God. And that’s none of my business.

We have to be careful of what we speak over others, directing them away from God. Especially in a place of authority. That breaks my heart. Yet, I trust His direction for my life. And I will stay until He says move.

Today for me, I will sit with the worship on my tv. Tears, sadness, happiness. And allow God to be God. And me to be His child. And Everytime the thought tries to come against me about how it’s wrong, I will speak out, I am not God. And in my life I am moved to surrender. And that’s all that matters, for now at least.

My daddy is the best there is. His intentions for me are pure and perfect. He wants me. And I want Him too.

Thanks for reading.

Terri.